Life is full of countdowns right now, so even counting the total months I’ve been doing this project feels like a conclusion.
How do you feel about the project?
Ten months would feel like more of an accomplishment if I were on track with everything I originally set out to do. I don’t know why, but I can’t seem to just let it go!
What have you learned?
Hmm. It’s funny how as the project has progressed, learning has gradually become more abstract.
I’ve been currently learning about how to live, and love, and give of myself, and end things well. People keep asking me what are the one or two things I really want to do before leaving Michigan. And really the only thing that comes to mind is finishing well–in work and in relationships. And, well, I wanted to go salsa dancing at least once more, but I’ve just gotten that one out of the way this past weekend. It was wonderful.
What do you like?
I like being unconventional and doing things that many other people only dream about. Not because I don’t want others to have great experiences and accomplish their dreams, but because it feels like confirmation that I’m living fully and chasing after opportunities and won’t regret it.
What do you not like?
Being unconventional is scary. Doing “an alternative graduate school experience” is all alternative and hipster and cool until it involves quitting your job, selling all your things, cutting ties, etc. Granted–those are mostly voluntary choices–but still. There are times I think I’ve completely lost my mind and will never be “successful” because of the choices I’m making right now. But then I just tell that voice to be quiet and go away because it’s not telling me the truth.
What are you looking forward to?
I’m really looking forward to the experiences and learning I’ll have on the road, particularly in meeting new people. (I can’t believe I’m even saying that–I’m so not a people person.)
I’m investigating some volunteer opportunities for while I’m traveling, and I’m very hopeful that some of them will work out. It’s bizarre to think of not working, but I’m very excited about the thought of being able to give my time and energy to the things that are important. (Not that I don’t think my jobs are, as well.)